Long time no blog

I do not swear or promise that I am going to start blogging more because I do not know that I will. I just know that I have decided to jump back in it for tonight anyway. My last post was in August of 2010. That was around 9 months ago. There is no way I could ever begin to describe the changes God has led me to in the past 9 months. Some have been good and some have been not so great. I am terrified of what lies ahead because I am still not at peace with the events that have transpired in my life specifically in the past 3 months. Heartache, disappointment, fear, anger, hurt....it has all just been a huge roller-coaster ride. However I am picking up the pieces and making that most of all of the wonderful things I have in my life.
Tonight I went to a Bible study with my parents at Northridge Christian Church here in Milledgeville. The Pastor there, Craig Portwood, gave me so much to think about. He asked you know if tomorrow was the end of the road for me, what or who would I say is the most important thing/person in my life. So let me start there:
My brother, BT, is the most important person and thing in my life. He is my main priority. Don't get me wrong my parents mean the world to me but when it is all said and done BT is the one that I turn to for everything and he knows everything about my life. I can't talk to my parents about my parents, or to my friends about my friends (or issues we have). I never have an issue with BT so I can always talk to him about anything. The past 3 weeks have been absolutely killing me because my baby brother has been hurting. His best friend died in a car wreck and he has been a totally different person ever since then. My heart completely aches for him because he is still hurting so much and misses Hunter so very much. I pray to God every single day for BT's heart and mind to be at rest and at peace with what has happened to Hunter because I know that is the only way he will get through all of this.
On another note:
Next Monday I start my summer classes from May 23rd to June 23rd. Five days a week for an hour and 40 minutes. On the weekends? I plan on staying busy, traveling, seeing friends, and spending time working on myself and my relationship with God and all the people around me that I consider important. I am cutting out the people that don't want me in their lives. The End.
Well it is late and my mind is semi-scattered right now. I plan on getting on the lake tomorrow with some friends. Staying busy--it's my new thing. Loving life--it's my other new thing!